Carry On

Lately I can't feel anything but loneliness. I've been feeling sorry for myself for not being able to get over stuff that has happened to me. But let's face it, falling in love is, in deed, one of the greatest things that can happen to you. Of course it makes you feel miserable some times, but the feeling you get is at least overwhelming and amazing. Although, there's a common complication, as I've started saying, to not be able to get over it. That's exactly what's happening to me. I've tried, and I've met some people that could've helped me to do it, but some way or another it hasn't worked out and I've ended up going back to that one person I know will always be there for me, despite it isn't right or possible for us to ever be together.

Sometimes I feel very unlucky, because since he crossed my way I haven't felt anything like that again. But some other times, I feel like the luckiest person in the world, because thanks to having that feeling I know I'm alive and I know it's been worthwhile to put up with all the shit that has happened to me. There are lots of worse things that could happen and haven't.

Above all, I am still young, as a friend told me, and I've got plenty of time to find someone that makes me feel the same way, but even better, because it would be possible and won't have misery around it. Even when I re-read this I will think it sounds naive, but it's faith and expectations what keeps us all alive. So I'll do whatever is in my hand to fulfill my life's purpose (the one I've decided to be) and stop wining so much. Life is short, and we're young for an even shorter time. 

So be it.